Still in pain

Unfortunately my progress and well being has taken a turn for the worse again. I think I did too much on Wed, and buy wed night I really wasn't feeling good at all. I went to bed early, but by early hours of the morning I was in agony again. :(

I was very depressed and despondent at my backward steps. Which wasn't helped by work unsympathetically phoning up wanting to to know when i was coming back to work and that I was ok to do the shift this Sat (that had apparently been arranged in my absence and I actually had no idea about!) I was also told I was supposed to be working all day Monday. I told them no I couldn't do those shifts and would try to make it back for Wed.

But the way I'm feeling now, and with the way my progress is going, and the way they've treated me I think I might actually take the whole month off.

I just ended up spending the whole day in bed. I think it actually did me some good as altho I was stiff when I got up when Patrick got home, I was in less pain. However come this morning at 4 my leg was in agony again and I ended up taking the very strong painkillers. Which knocked me out until 6 when there were cats fighting outside so I took some diazepam in the end to help me sleep. I did end up getting some sleep, but I now think the visitors wore me out.

I've had a blinding headache all evening and I've no idea why. I also feel sick so I don't know if it's the beginning of a migraine. I don't know whether it's the painkillers I'm taking or if there is something else underlying that's stopping me getting better.

The back/ bottom pain has actually got a lot better. Inflammation is almost not existent, but the leg pain has got worse. And the thing that gets me is that there is no reason for it. If it is the muscle inflammation causing the nerve pain, as the muscles ease, surely so should the nerve? Not get worse. To me it makes no sense so it makes me question what I have.

All I know is I just feel rubbish physically and mentally. I'm even feverish at times. Today I was like an ice block, yesterday I was like furnace!

Going to try to get some sleep now. Patrick is still in the other room as he's dead on his feet, and I'm going to probably be very restless. But at least he has 2 days off now to recover.

Anyway I'll update you on my progress hopefully I'll have some good news to report soon.